She's Here

The boys can't get enough of her, there aren't enough waking hours in the day for them to hold and kiss her. I am loving dressing her in cute clothes and bows. We are happy to finally have our baby girl here!

The end

I am always torn with emotions at this point in my pregnancy. I am so uncomfortable, I can't sleep, bend over, roll over, and my legs are KILLING me. In so many ways I hate being pregnant. I hate the way I feel, I hate the way I look, I hate my vericose veins. Still, there is something I so love about being pregnant. I love feeling the baby move, I love that even when I am doing nothing at all I am doing something amazing and truly miraculous. There is just something special about being pregnant, I know that sounds corny, but it's true. Brett is convinced this is our last, but he has said that before, so we will see. If this is our last I can't believe I will never do this again, I can't believe I will never have a baby inside me again, never give birth again, never have a new baby again. It's like closing a very imporant chapter of my life.

I may have a love/hate relationship with being pregnant, but one thing is for sure, I only have a LOVE for giving birth. Some may laugh at me or call me crazy, but my favorite day of my whole life is the day I give birth. It is the most fullfilling, amazing, miraculous day ever, and I absolutely love it with all my heart. As long as I have that good epideral, all is well. It's so amazing to me that you go to the hospital one day and come home with a new person, a new member of your family who will be a part of you forever. It's amazing.

So I have mixed feelings right now. I am so excited to meet this new little person, to see what she looks like, to hold her. At the same time I am a little sad that she's not just mine anymore, I am not the only one who gets to feel her and be a part of her. It may sound strange, but it's always how I feel right before I have a baby.

I am a little nervous to have four kids. Everyone says once you have three adding more isn't too much harder. I think it just depends on what kind of baby she is. I thought Carter was a hard kid until I had Sam, so you just never know.

I am excited and sad, but I can't wait to hold and see her!

Baby Shower

I love baby showers, I love getting together with friends, eating good food and seeing all the cute baby presents. I must admit, though I love all the cute things my friends gave me and I am truly grateful, I always feel a little weird when the shower is for me. It's a little uncomfortable being the center of attention, the one opening all the gifts instead of watching. It was well worth it though, boy did I get some cute things. If this baby comes out a boy I am in trouble!

I am so lucky to have so many wonderful friends here in San Diego. It was such a scary, "experimental" thing when Brett and I moved away from Utah and all our friends and family. I really didn't know how we would like it. Luckily for us we moved to the most beautiful place in the world with undoubtedly the most wonderful people. We couldn't be any more blessed with the friends we have made here, they are truly our second family. THANK YOU, I couldn't do it without all of you!

My friend Heather pointed out I don't put any pictures of myself on my blog. I have a great reason for that, I HATE the way I look in pictures when I am pregnant. I know I need to stop being so vain. So here you go Heather, taken with your camera, a picture of me greasy faced and all!

She looks so cute in my comfy new boppy!!

Spring Break

I love spring break, it's like a little taste of summer in the spring. We needed to stay close to home this year with the baby coming soon, but we had plenty of fun things planned. Luckily we made it to the beach, park, movies, and a visit to Brett at work, but a bad fever put Jacob out for two days and Carter out for one.

Oh how I love the beach! I don't know if there is anywhere I would rather be. Luckily for me the kids feel the same way!

I feel so bad for Jacob that he had to spend part of his spring break on the couch instead of out playing, but having his friend Adam sick too helped soften the blow.

Pizza night at the Birds. Sunshine made delicious pizzas and even let the kids make their own. Unfortunately Jacob and Adam were sick in bed, but the rest of us had fun!

The boys love going to visit Dad at work. He only works at the office two days a week so it's a little hard to make it there very often. Rocky always has fun things for them to do like pop the shipping wrap and play football in the warehouse. Sam is especially fond of the packing peanut machine, I am sure you can imaging what kind of mess he can make with that!